The last couple of weeks have been difficult for me. I’ve not been happy at work, and unfortunately there is not much I can do about it. I can’t quit (which is what I’d like to do), DH would never agree to it and we still need to save for retirement. There’s also the fact that in this economy it would be foolish to leave a decent paying job with nothing else to go to. It’s only in the last couple of weeks that I’ve felt this way: I’ve always enjoyed my job and the people I work with.
Two weeks ago was the worst and I was unhappy and miserable, bordering on depressed, for the entire week. I felt much better on the weekend until late Sunday afternoon, on the way back from visiting Pip, when I thought of work the next day and I felt sick in the pit of my stomach. Last week wasn’t much better, but again the weekend was good until yesterday when I had to think about work today. But this time wasn’t as bad as the previous Sunday. My boss isn’t in today, I wonder if that’s got anything to do with it!
Because I haven’t been feeling particularly happy, the house suffered and I fell off the housekeeping wagon. My inner housekeeper ran and hid under the covers somewhere. The living room didn’t get picked up each night, I didn’t keep up with doing the dishes, and there’s been a basket of ironing sitting on the couch for a week.
When I’m emotional and upset it seems that the house gets forgotten. My way of dealing is to sit in front of the TV and not think about anything. DH never says a word; in fact I don’t think he even notices. But I do and I berate myself and start feeling worse!
So I have to start again.
The bed was made this morning. I had my glass of water this morning and I even took my vitamins (yay, I remembered)!
Oh yes, the glass of water. I was reading http://destination1940.blogspot.com/again and she is on a new mission this week: fitness, diet and grooming, and it starts with a glass of water first thing in the morning and includes a walk every day. Check it out here and here.
My bed is made, I drank my water, I took my vitamins, and I arrived at work with a somewhat optimistic attitude. I've finished one 500ml bottle of water and gone for a walk on my lunch break. Let’s see where things go for the rest of the day.
9 years ago
I know how you feel, last night I was tired and had a sink full of dishes and the dishwasher was full, Hubby was working on wedding stuff so I had to do them by myself. Im the exact same way I shut down and just watch tv. I told myself, Im going to wash these dishes, and somehow I did it, without really realizing it. I think I was distracted by what Hubby was talking about. I think youre amazing that you have a full time job and then come home and be homemaker! I dont think I could do it.
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